There’s a feeling internally…a light bulb switch on…when the hopelessness of the situation dissolves and an answer appears…often through the words of another. A conduit of the Universe. October 2014. My therapist and I were brainstorming places I could go. We need to get you and Desiree out safely and healthily…her words kept ruminating through my […]
If Seagull has flown across your path… It’s time to take a different perspective on things. Take a moment and step back from everything that you are currently dealing with and look at it from a different angle. Your solution lies in changing your attitude towards the problem at hand. Soar above the drama and […]
We attempt to hide our deepest struggles behind a mask, a new purse…or perhaps a wig. Our external appearance attempts to convince everyone that everything’s ok…business as usual…I’m fine…I’m really, really… NOT fine. Why is it easier to share our little annoyances, grievances, and the external wrongs in our lives, but the deep painful internal […]
I googled “good chemo day” and didn’t find anything, but it’s a thing that shows up in our life experience every week. Keyword: “our”. I witness it, he feels it. Key point: we both experience it. On his “bad” chemo days, I’m not sure how to rescue him. It’s less about the pain in his […]
As the spouse, loved one, or caretaker of someone going through chemo, it is absolutely imperative that we develop this higher sense.
Intimacy requires it. Vulnerability insists upon it. Love expands around it. As our personal crazy is recognized and honored, our souls relax.
When we met for breakfast after my willPower workout, it was a big deal but I had no idea why. I did notice something different, but it was the exposed biceps..not the exposed spots. He was wearing a tank top. I had only recently convinced him to take off his shirt in bed. He’s very […]
Drifting down toward the earth, snowflakes cannot escape their true essence. And, neither can we.
I always feel a little off on Memorial Day…you would think 23 years of separation would help ease the pain. It does, but…not completely. Especially not when the second most important man in your life is battling for his…and it was our first night together that he didn’t cook me dinner. He couldn’t…he was too […]
Last night, he had bad dreams. Hard to sleep. He is already feeling the effects of cancer…weakness, fatigue, extreme temperature changes, dizziness, and recently, nausea and nose bleeds. So, today, when he went in, his doctors acknowledged this and took 12 vials of blood. Ouch. Then, when they started rattling off the potential side-effects of […]
In the process of destruction, how do you not destroy yourself? You learn from the butterfly…and the Desi-bear
When he asked me where I wanted to go on Mother’s Day, I didn’t even think about it. (btw, those are always the best decisions…) I blurted out, Mon Ami Gabi. It was symbolic to me. Symbolic of what “Sarah liked”. Something I often saved for my business trips to Tokyo where I could make my own […]